LONESOME...

I have so much going on in mind right now. But somehow the flow of words is missing. My mind is muddled with thoughts, both, rational as well as irrational ones. I don’t know if what I am writing makes sense, yet I am trying hard to organize them and give my mind some direction.

At this point of time, I miss so many things in my life. Its like…all memories, good and bad, have come all at once. I guess, empty days with nothing to do, do that to you.

I miss the fun times I spent with friends. I miss the crazy evenings when we actually did nothing, and yet had a gala time. I miss those telephone chats for long hours. I miss rushing to help a friend in sadness. I miss them wiping my tears away. I miss those night outs. I miss the photo sessions. I miss the long discussions about bfs and gfs. I miss having Maggie in a mug rather than a plate. I miss disturbing a friend thousand times for water. I miss the time when a friend called me when drunk and said the sweetest things. I miss spending evenings at Jogger’s lane and chatting away. I miss going to Calcutta Rolls. I miss Mango Dolly. I miss the silly fights we had. I miss the burst of confidence I had, telling me that no matter what, everything will be fine. I miss the confessions…. I miss so many more things…

There was a time when I didn’t have time to get bored. One phone call or a walk across the street was all that was needed to make a plan. Meeting friends was never an issue. But now, some have moved away and some are simply busy in their lives. No longer can I invade a friend’s room without prior notice. Earlier, we met and made plans… Now, we plan to meet. Its strange how your closest pals drift away…leaving a void in your life.

I miss all my friends so much today…Nupur, Neha, Amit, Vipra…I miss every moment spent with them. Had they been here, I know I would never have had a single dull moment. At times I feel lonely coz no more can I tell anyone anything ‘haq se’. We are all still together…yet distance keeps us a little apart…