BLACK AND WHITE

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LONESOME...

I have so much going on in mind right now. But somehow the flow of words is missing. My mind is muddled with thoughts, both, rational as well as irrational ones. I don’t know if what I am writing makes sense, yet I am trying hard to organize them and give my mind some direction.

At this point of time, I miss so many things in my life. Its like…all memories, good and bad, have come all at once. I guess, empty days with nothing to do, do that to you.

I miss the fun times I spent with friends. I miss the crazy evenings when we actually did nothing, and yet had a gala time. I miss those telephone chats for long hours. I miss rushing to help a friend in sadness. I miss them wiping my tears away. I miss those night outs. I miss the photo sessions. I miss the long discussions about bfs and gfs. I miss having Maggie in a mug rather than a plate. I miss disturbing a friend thousand times for water. I miss the time when a friend called me when drunk and said the sweetest things. I miss spending evenings at Jogger’s lane and chatting away. I miss going to Calcutta Rolls. I miss Mango Dolly. I miss the silly fights we had. I miss the burst of confidence I had, telling me that no matter what, everything will be fine. I miss the confessions…. I miss so many more things…

There was a time when I didn’t have time to get bored. One phone call or a walk across the street was all that was needed to make a plan. Meeting friends was never an issue. But now, some have moved away and some are simply busy in their lives. No longer can I invade a friend’s room without prior notice. Earlier, we met and made plans… Now, we plan to meet. Its strange how your closest pals drift away…leaving a void in your life.

I miss all my friends so much today…Nupur, Neha, Amit, Vipra…I miss every moment spent with them. Had they been here, I know I would never have had a single dull moment. At times I feel lonely coz no more can I tell anyone anything ‘haq se’. We are all still together…yet distance keeps us a little apart…

TOMORROW...

Do you see the little girl out there?

With gleaming skin, chubby and fair?

Lost in the world of dreams she smiles,

Unperturbed by the rampant noise…

Let her play all she wants today,

To the tunes of raindrops, let her dance away,

Tomorrow may not be the same,

There may be a flood, no pleasing rain…

No duties no relations bind her now,

No competition yet to drag her down,

But tomorrow she’ll have to fight the world,

To make her place and survive the hurl…

Tomorrow she’ll no longer be just a daughter,

She’ll be someone’s wife, someone’s mother,

So many ties to nurture and preserve,

Its no easy task for sure…

So let her open her heart and sing loudly,

Tomorrow she may be busy with her lad’s poetry,

Let her dress her doll in shiny satin,

Later she’ll be tying her girl’s ribbons…

She has no worries at the moment,

Only dreams and desires gently woven,

She is happy to stay alone and play,

Her favourite toys make her day…

But tomorrow there’ll be promises to keep,

Commitments to make and friends to meet,

With responsibilities she may be laden,

Trying to keep pace with the changing seasons…

So let her choose her friends and just chill,

Later she’ll have expectations to fulfil,

Let her build sand castles with her best mate,

Tomorrow she may have to deal with heartbreak…

Look how content she seems to be,

Smiling at the falling leaf,

Let her run and catch butterflies,

Tomorrow there’ll be obstacles of tremendous heights…

Expectations… responsibilities…

Friends… family…

Career… competition…

Dreams… hindrance…

Oh…there is a tough life yet to come,

So let her just live the moment and have some fun,

Let her do all that dwells in her heart…

Let her enjoy the peace while it lasts…

REMINISCENCE

The sands of time are slipping away,

Seeping through the clasp of life,

Taking away some golden remembrances,

Can’t hold them, try as I might…

Let me gather some memories of you

To hold on to before you bid adieu…

Some more smiles,

Some hearty laughs,

Some reminiscences,

Which will forever last…

It may be too late,

To create a sweetly different world,

But can’t we let things just happen?

Can’t we just let moments unfurl?

Let me have some such moments,

With love and care, carefully woven…

Some more hugs,

Some childlike giggles,

Some more pecks,

Some nutty chuckles…

Deep in my heart will remain,

All the times we spent together,

Every instant intensely carved,

Our bond warmly tethered…

Let me have with you today,

Some more memories which will never fade…

Some more coffee,

Some more pictures,

Some wackier pjs,

To hold on to year after year…

We may have lost,

Some precious seconds in silly fights,

Yet, there’s still time enough,

To make up for the lost times…

Let me have some more moments to live,

And ask for something only you can give…

Some more chances,

Some way to reconcile,

Some more words,

To set things right…

Today you are here,

Tomorrow you’ll be gone,

But you’ll always linger in my mind,

Like an evergreen song…

Let me savour the smiles of all these days,

Let me enjoy with you in the rains…

Some more chats,

Some secrets to share,

Some more assurance,

To know you’ll be there…

With this realization I walk each day,

Hoping to find you right beside me,

I wish you leave your footprints engraved in my heart,

So I can look back to find you just where you left me…

Let some more colours imbue the remaining time,

Let our days be filled with sunshine…

Some more dreams,

Some unheard words,

Some special jingles,

To last forever…

बागेच्या हिरव्या विस्तारात पुष्प असे बहरते,

पाखर त्याच्या सुगंधात वाहून हसते;

हे धागे बंधनाचे,

त्यांना असे काही जोड़ते,

जणू सृष्टिच्या बहु चमत्कारातले हे एक...

हे धागे बंधनाचे...

त्यांना असे काही जोड़ते...





नभाच्या मंडपातुन येणारे थेंब पावसाचे,

व्रुक्षान्ना...पानांना एक नवी ऊर्जा देते;

झिमझिम पाण्याने,

मी ओलेचिम्ब होते,

बेभान होउन पानांसह मी ही झुलू लागले...

झिमझिम पाण्याने...

मी ओलेचिम्ब होते...





उजाळ पहाटे कोकीळ गीत मधुर गाते,

सुरांच्या जाळ्यात मन माझे हरवते;

एक उन्हाड दिवस असे,

रंग अनेक दाखवते,

मावळत्या सूर्यात माला माझे प्रतिबिंब दिसू लागते...

एक उन्हाड दिवस असे...

रंग अनेक दाखवते...




निसर्गाचे विविध रूप पाहून मन भरून येते,

जीवनाचे सार आता समजू लागते;

अर्थ नात्यांचे,

मूल्य अस्तित्वाचे,

इन्द्रधनुषाच्या सप्तारंगांत आयुष्याचे वर्ण दिसू लागले...

अर्थ नात्यांचे...

मूल्य अस्तित्वाचे...




हे धागे बंधनाचे...

अर्थ नात्यांचे...

नवजीवन देऊन गेले...

THE SOUND OF GOODBYE…

It feels so difficult to let you go,

But I can’t hold you back, I know.

Goodbye, my love,

Live well and long;

I’ll miss you so much,

Your heart is where I belong;

Walk away if you must,

Go, make your life a lovely song…

I’m not sure if I can live like this,

Remembering and savouring the feel of your kiss;

Each memory a falling leaf,

Searing my heart, bringing me grief.

Yet, I won’t ask you to stop,

I’ll swallow every sob;

Walk away if you must,

I’ll always love you…

I’ll miss you so much...

A thousand questions fill my mind,

But a single answer I can’t find;

Every feeling bruised and uncertain,

My heart is all aching and broken.

Yet, I won’t demand a single word,

Even though it may hurt like a sword;

Walk away if you must,

I’ll always love you…

I’ll miss you so much...

Every moment spent with you,

Is a splendid shade of the love-hue;

Let me breathe-in its heady fragrance,

Tomorrow I may not feel its scent.

Yet, I won’t ask you to bring me colours,

For, life without you will lose its vigour;

Walk away if you must,

I’ll always love you…

I’ll miss you so much...

Goodbye, my love…

Live well and long…

Imperfectly Perfect...

A pleasant day…bright and clear…perfect for an outing. I get ready in anticipation of a fun filled day and gear up to finally meet Dabbu after a long time :) I put on my shoes…grab my wallet and… tringgg…Dabbu calls to say that I should not leave as yet. Hmmm…ok…so I log on to g-talk and luckily a friend is online. I am like…Thank God, I’ve got someone to chat with. The conversation just gets interesting when I get another call asking me to reach the destination. Well…I’ve already waited this long…a few more minutes won’t hurt I guess. So I chat for another 10 minutes before logging off. I put on my shoes…once again…grab my wallet…once again…and reach the door…and… hell!!! It starts raining right before my eyes!!

All day long there is not a drop of rain and when I am about to leave, the sky erupts! Wonderful…this is all I needed. I inform Dabbu that I might be late…and if it continues to pour with this speed then…

But finally the rain slows down and I get a chance to escape. Mind you…I don’t have a full raincoat and I still risk the raging weather. So...the journey begins…me in an oversized jacket happily taking off for the destination. Hardly do I travel a kilometre than the rain crashes on me! Still left with a long journey ahead…I am completely drenched. And hey…the story has just begun. Just where the rain is the heaviest, my dio starts betraying me...she refuses to move ahead and stops right in the middle of the road. Hell…why didn’t I treat her with petrol before leaving?? Well…what’s done is done…so here I am…pushing my way through a water filled road all the way to the petrol pump. As if that weren’t enough, I realise at the petrol pump that I have forgotten to refill my wallet! I just hope now that I’ve kept yesterday’s change intact. And yes, I do find some cash…barely enough to get me to the destination.

Now…petrol filled…money paid…frustration relieved a bit…but the damn dio wont start!! God! It takes me full 10 minutes to get the thing started. And finally…I leave the petrol pump with a sigh. And when I think nothing worse can happen to me now, just the opposite occurs. I decide to go through the main road to avoid muddy splashy lanes. But luck just deserts me when I need it the most. The main road is so full of water that I am scared of slipping and falling right into it!

To add to my woes, the 4-wheeler drivers act over-smart and assume it their right to give us, the 2-wheeler drivers, a muddy shower! Well…fine…ok…I convince myself that just some distance is left and finally reach Dabbu’s place…all drenched…from top to bottom…clothes soaked in the muddy water…water dripping off my hair, my face, even my shoes…[sigh].

I ring the bell…aunty is right there. She watches me and gives a sympathetic smile which says ‘its-alright-these-things-happen-all-the-time’. And then Dabbu has to look at me and give one of those mocking looks! Aunty gets me a towel and insists that I change. I stand there holding a towel, embarrassed like hell! Try as I might, both, aunty and Dabbu, are not convinced when I say I don’t need a change of clothes. After a series of failed attempts, I finally change and aunty (bless her :) ) lovingly tells me not to be formal and awkward and that she always encounters things like this.

At long last…there I am…at Dabbu’s place…in Dabbu’s clothes…hoping that atleast the day gives me more than I expected. And the time that follows is filled with lots of smiles…some laughter…some fights…some patch-ups…some snaps…and a lot of tickling :)…

The day turns out to be a remarkable one for me…another leaf in my kitty of memories…meant to dry someday…but always to be present in my diary. The day, I say, is not the perfect one…but its Imperfectly Perfect…