SOME FACTS...SOME LESSONS...

There is something about night-stays that brings out the honest, wild and best part of us. Some confessions…some tears…lotsa laughter…some gossip…some bolts from the blue…and much more gets encompassed in one short night. Every time we have a night stay, I discover some really interesting stuff about my buddies. And every night stay has taught me some valuable lessons…

The Lessons…..

1. Pretend all u want that you’ve distanced yourself from your best buddies…but the pretence won’t last long…

2. No matter how unthinkingly you’ve behaved, your true friends will always forgive u…

3. New friends are dear…but old ones are a treasure…in short…old is gold…

4. There’s nothing like egocentricity among real and honest pals…altruism does exist…

5. Years and years of differences can turn into ‘friendship of a lifetime’ with a simple ‘sorry’ and a hug…

6. Sometimes your childlike friend has the wisest word of advice for u…

7. Never underestimate the amount of tolerance your friends possess…

8. Past is irrevocable…and dead…all that matters, is how well u mould your present to enjoy a rewarding future…

9. Your buddies will do everything in their power to help u forget that past…

10. Its better to have a few true friends than to have many namesake ones…


The Facts…

1. Girls can cry over some really silly stuff…and I accept it !

2. 99 out of 100 times, the reason for tears is…boys…

2. There’s never a limit on the number of movies u can watch back-to-back…3...4………..5????

3. U may have had a fulsome dinner just an hour ago…yet u can gorge on lays n kurkure non-stop...

4. There’s nothing more divine than sprawling on a single bed…even though the number of people may be 3...4…

5. The one who says she’ll stay awake all night is the first one to fall asleep…

6. U recall the discussed-atleast-a-hundred-times incidents and get nostalgic…

7. Reminiscence is bliss…

8. U always laugh over the things u had cried over in the past…

9. U can never chat/laugh/squabble softly…no matter how late it is and how many times u are threatened….

10. U wish that the night would never end and the fun could last forever…

दिन ढल गया, शाम सुहानी आई,
साथ अपने, उम्मीद की लहर लाई;
एक लड़की को था इंतजार किसी अपने का,
मन था बेचैन, सब्र का इम्तेहान था...


वर्षा की पहली बूँद जो उसके अंगने आई,
इंतजार की एक अनोखी रुत लाई;
टिप-टिप बरसती बूंदों का कुछ ऐसा था अहसास,
मानो, आसमान ने छेड़ा हो कोई राग...


फिर...
नज़रें ढूँढती रहीं,
जाने कब रात हो गई,
पर जिसकी राह तकि वह ना आया,
तो लगा,
जाने क्यों बिन मौसम बरसात हुई?


सपनों के मोती बिखरें कुछ इस कदर,
के अँधेरा छा गया हर डगर;
अश्क लाख छिपाएं छिपें नहीं,
दिल में थी कश्मकश, पलकों पे नमी...


जब देखा फिर उन बूँदों की ओर,
तो संगीत लगने लगा शोर;
गम का साया लाए वो बादल,
जैसे ओढ़ ली थी ज़िन्दगी ने तन्हाई की चादर...


तब...
खामोशी भी कुछ खास कह गई...
कह गई एक अनमोल बात;
के ज़िन्दगी यूही चलती है,
आशाएं बिखरती हैं, टूटते हैं ख्वाब;
पर जन्नत होती है सबके नसीब में,
गर हो मन में विशवास...


तब वह पगली लड़की
लगी समेटने अपने बिखरे सपने,
बुनने माला एक नई कहानी की...


सो गई वह मुस्कुराते हुए,
रखके कुछ नए ख्वाब सिरहाने...

A WAR WITHIN ME

Sometimes things just don’t go the way you want them to. A series of failures and disappointments make you wonder if your hardwork, your commitment and your faith in ‘doing-the-right-thing’ was worth anything. You wonder if ‘God helps those who help themselves’ really holds some truth or is it just a cliché. Then again there’s a question of your confidence being brutally murdered. That’s when you want to ask God why He’s doing this to you?!

And if you are young, still in the phase of learning what life is, not yet completely exposed to all shades of reality, then it becomes all the more difficult to face the bullets of setbacks fired at you incessantly.

Well, the reason behind all this ‘philosophy’ is that - this is the summary of how my year went by! Be it interviews or presentations, exams or attendance, extra-curricular activities or simply college days, everything occurred in exactly the opposite way than I expected. Why only the session, I guess, God didn’t even wish for me to have ‘Happy Holidays’! Not that I didn’t work hard or something, but I guess, sometimes its just God’s way to show you the bitter side of reality by taking you on a roller-coaster ride! And what a ride it was!

But, once I got over this ‘God-is-unfair’ notion, my mind cleared and I began to look beyond this fiasco. Whenever I feel low on confidence, I have a mantra to revive myself from the gloom. I tell myself – “You get to learn from every mistake, every failure...And that’s exactly what you gotta do right now!” I might’ve forgotten my own mantra for a while, but when it struck me, I pulled myself out of the frustration. I decided to try and be receptive to all that happened in the entire session and move on. And believe me, when I looked at the past with an open mind, I found so many things which I could learn from. I found a way to channalise my anger, frustration and bitterness in a positive direction to create something better.

Like every night is followed by day, so is every failure by success. If you are willing to embrace every situation constructively, then no defeat can hold you down for a long time. You are sure to surface the violent sea with great poise.

For me, it was not a battle about winning against someone or about proving a point to someone. For me, it was a battle about overcoming my despair, about soothing my mind and putting its apprehension to rest. For me, it was a battle about forgetting all the failures and about regaining my confidence.

I keep telling myself that what lies ahead is going to be better than what went by. I assure myself of the fact that, so long as I am at peace with myself, I need not worry about what others think.

All said and done, yet another session has gone by…and I must admit that it has been fulfilling in many ways!! Its time now to look forward to new challenges and endeavours with great aplomb!

Worth The Pain....

Days turn cold,
Feelings grow old,
Lost all hold,
I search my soul…

Months pass by,
And yet I try,
Tempers fly,
I don’t know why…

Memories taunt,
Tears flaunt,
Remembrance daunts,
Time prolongs…

A battle within,
My heart’s dim,
Torpidity wins,
I hear no din…

I try to see,
What lies within me,
Find no key,
To tranquillity…

Bloody pain,
Makes me insane,
Love’s all vain,
A sure bane…

Suppressed emotions,
Need expression,
Utmost frustration,
Is my reflection…

With every setting sun,
Fresh tears come,
Lost along the run…
The devils have won…

As dreams lay shattered,
And desires get battered,
My strength I gather,
To face yet another battle…

Heartbeats hold,
Stories untold,
Moments unfold,
Memories come forth…

Every moment,
Within me frozen,
Unfazed commotion,
Season after season…

It takes a lot,
To forget a love lost…
To swallow each sob…
And smile without a throb…

And yet I trust,
Love over lust,
Hearts do crush,
Leaving behind,
A forever-fresh,
Bittersweet touch…

DADDY, PLEASE…

Daddy, why don’t u believe me
When I say,
That I’ve grown up now,
I’m a big girl today!

Please, Daddy, give me a chance
To spread my wings;
And give me a chance to know
If love soothes or stings…

I love u, Daddy,
And I know u care;
But please, don’t tie me down,
Its so unfair!

Please, Daddy…

Let me tumble, let me fall,
Let me scrape my knee on the wall;

If u always hold my hand,
I may never learn to stand;

Let me falter, let me slip,
Let me feel the pain of every whip;

Let me rise on my own,
To know how it feels to be tired and worn;

Let me grumble, let me yell,
Let me come out of my shell;

Please, don’t dictate my every step,
Or I may never know what to do next;

Let me learn in my own way,
Let me have my every say;

Give me time to absorb and grow,
Don’t just push me towards the flow;

All I ask for is my space to think,
So that, my dreams stay afloat and they never sink;

Daddy, for a while, set me free,
Let me be…just me!

Valentine's Day has come and gone...i fail to understand what all the fuss is about...i mean...agreed that its a special day to express ur feelings or to revive them...but what about the rest 364 days???...moreover, when i went through all newspapers, almost all love messages were for spouces or lovers...i wonder what is it then that we share with our family, our friends?...i feel that in the course of flowing with and following the crowd, we have lost the essence of love and the way to express it....most people are stuck with the notion that Valentine's Day is meant for lovers or couples...and that it is to be celebrated with great fanfare...

....but....i feel very glad that, as always, my mom was the first to

greet me on Valentine's Day!...

...and this is a reflection of love....a love that my mom feels for me....

....just the same, love is a profound emotion that reflects so many

relations....

...whats LOVE then?....

....its Love when a mother holds her baby for the first time....

....its Love when a father gently takes his baby's hand and counts its

fingers....

....its Love when a puppy lovingly licks ur nose....

....its Love when ur friend lends u his shoulder after ur heartbreak....

....its Love when ur sister covers up ur mistake in front of mom....

....its Love when u look at him and wish for his happiness despite knowing that he'll never be urs....

....its Love when daddy hugs his daughter, wishing for her a happy new life with tears in his eyes....

....its Love when a kid sits on his grandpa's lap and listens to his favorite story for a hundredth time....

....its Love when u stop on the road on a dark cold night and give ur jumper to a shivering fragile kid....

....its Love when u ask ur teacher to explain a problem fifth time in a row and still she smiles....

Love is in....a baby's breath....a mother's touch....a father's hug....a friend's smile....a toddler's laugh....a pup's cuddle....love is in every heart that beats....

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ...........

its a dull day for me..i'm completely emmersed in presentations...its around 11 in the morning, and the fact that i should go to college for the sake of attendance has just dawned on me...but i'm tooooo lazzzzzy...cant get my butt off my chair!..i have been staring at my laptop screen for the past 4 hours..and now my eyes seem to be popping out! they're crying for rest...but..no..rest they'll not get...so what better way to stay awake than to pour my frustration and fatigue in the blog??..presentations...the word itself has become nauseating!...but theres no escape..atleast not for the next 1 year...currently...i eat presentations, sleep presentations and dream presentations!!....right now, sitting with a mug of coffee in my hand, seems to be the most pleasant form of relaxation....coffee keeps u awake...a whole mug of it sure does fill ur tummy...and...it keeps reminding ME that this is just the beginning....there r many more mugs to go!...so...in the hope to get rid of boredom and laziness...Cheers!!